The Pink Shoe Diaries

i think i might give my notice today!


well, yesterday i was pretty much convinced that i was going to do it. i mean, let's review


1) i have no benefits here, even though i am a full time admin employee (not even health insurance! thank god i am still covered under my dad until september 30).


2) i make way less that i should be making. i went to salary.com and gave them all my info, and basically i am in the lower 25th percentile of my profession, given the location and size and type of company i am in


3) my paycheck has bounced twice in the past eight months. and i get paid BIWEEKLY so that is a huge pain.


that being said, i probably should have been gone a long time ago: but i like the people i work with and i like my job most (some?) of the time and i feel a sense of loyalty and i like the idea of staying at a job for more than 6 months even though i am out of college and should be getting my bearings now and not feeling so committed to a job that offers no hope of advancement both career and finance-wise.


but i digress


so in my mind, i would give my two weeks today, and then the 27th would be my last day and the week after that i would have set up all these interviews for fabulous jobs with fabulous pay and within one week i would be hired somewhere perfect for me, and i would tell them "i can start in one week" and then i would use that free week and my southwest airmiles to visit megs in LA for that week and i would come back to boston all refreshed with a new wardrobe from rodeo drive and be able to start my job with a clean slate and a new dior clutch.


enter maman.


jacqueline's version of this, of course, vastly differs from mine. it includes nasty words/phrases like "unemployment" and "no money" and "poor job market". she calls it "realistic" whereas i think it is "pessimistic". what does she know? she has never had to work! she confessed recently that she likes her job so much because she know she can take it or leave it. AND she has been there for 30 years so what does she know about changing jobs? furthermore, whenever her point of view is different from mine (which occurs with much frequency), i have no choice but to regard her opinions as irrelevant and wholly ignorant to my own needs and wants. she has no eye for the fabulous.


so what do we think i will do? i may pussy out and do nothing. i may be bold and give my notice. only time (and my mood when my boss arrives) will tell.....